5 weeks ago I decided to take part in Twice the Mum’s Weight Loss Wednesday link up to help motivate me into loosing some weight. Has it worked? No, I’m ashamed to say it hasn’t. I want to make all the excuses in the world, every time I sit down to write this post I started to jump to excuses as to why I haven’t made the effort that I know I’m capable of. This weeks was that i’m stressed with holiday preparations, that we’re currently running on empty so I’m just eating whatever is left. But the truth is, I like food. And I especially like sweet things. This week I made a batch of brownies and ate the lot (apart from two squares that Little Miss had) yes I substituted sweetener for sugar, but they were very chocolatey. And you know what? I don’t have any regrets. Well I didn’t, until I got on the scales today and saw that I’d returned to my previous weight. So now I’m back to square one.
However, after my holiday I am going to knuckle down and try my hardest. The weather is getting better so I can justify salads every day, I want to eat bowls of frozen fruit rather than chocolate. But the kicker is the fact I’m sat in my mums back garden in a skirt and t-shirt and I really don’t feel happy when I look down at myself. From my hips up, I’m not happy at all. I have lovely legs since I walk everywhere but the rest.. To put it bluntly if I was to get into bed with a guy now, we’d be lights off & under the quilt the whole time. In the winter I find it so much easier to dress for my shape, I know what suits me and flatters me (aka hides all my lumps and bumps). But when it comes to summer dressing, I’m a mess. I know I’ll come back off holiday and hate every single photo of myself, but at the end of the day, I only have myself to blame. I could have easily managed to loose that 10lbs in 5 weeks, but I haven’t and for that, I’m not proud.
So here we go, starting from the beginning again. And I’m determined to loose that 10lbs before August 19th.
Starting Weight – 9st 10lbs
Today’s Weight – 9st 10lbs
Gained/Loss – +1lbs
Total Loss = 0lbs