We’re now on the other side of the new year and if like me, you suffer from anxiety, you know the new year will look like a big black hole. I saw the new year in on my own and although it wasn’t by far the worst new year I’ve ever had, it wasn’t pleasant. I ended up having a panic attack before going to sleep. It was awful. And that’s when I decided things have to change.
I know a lot of people don’t like the whole “new year, new me” thing. But in my case, things have to change to give me a better value of life. The insomnia, the anxiety, I need to get on top of it all as it’s starting to really affect my life and i’m worried it’s heading a way where it’ll stop me wanting to do things. Of course I could simply go to the doctors and get medicated up to my eyeballs but I still want that to be a last resort.
I want to give my life some things to focus although I also want to take each day as it comes rather than thinking about the future. So here are the resolutions i’ve come up with;
Money for me causes a lot of stress and sleepless nights. I think if I can focus more on saving and less on spending it’ll really help cut out some of my worries which don’t help with my anxiety and insomnia.
From today until the 24th May, I’m on a spending ban. This spending ban applies to myself only. Whatever Little Miss needs, she’ll get especially with her birthday at the end of the month. For myself I will not be buying clothes, books, dvds or beauty supplies unless I have no backups, for example I only have one bottle of foundation so when that is out, I will need another but I will not be buying anything simply to have it. I will be allowed to spend money to do activities such as go to the cinema or eat out with friends, spend any vouchers I receive and buy anything related to travel such as train tickets.
Sell anything we do not need or use through eBay, blog sales and groups on Facebook. It’s not that i’m a hoarder, I just like to be prepared which usually means buying a lot of stuff I never get around to using or wearing. I also buy stuff I like rather than will suit me in regards to clothes so I plan on getting rid of any excess and use the money for adventures.
Speaking of adventures, 2014 will be the year of wanderlust. I plan on seeing my friends as much as possible even if that just means nagging them to come stay with me. Visiting new places and whatever I save from my spending ban in the first five months of the year to have a lot of fun in the summer. Paris gave me the traveling bug and I’ve realised life is too short for buying frivolous crap and instead I should be making memories.
Stop worrying about tomorrow and live for the now. I am a born pessimist because I truly believe if you never get your hopes up you can never get disappointed. In a nutshell this is a good piece of advice but you can think too much of it until the worry of tomorrow can consume you. I genuinely believe this is what has happened to me. I worry about everything to the point it has become unhealthy. I need to stop this. I need to forget about what is going to happen and focus on the time I have now. I’ll never get it back. If I want 2014 to be my year, I’m the only person who can make it so.
I think of resolutions all the time. Things I wish to do and change but I often forget them quickly. I’d like to also read more books, take photos of more outfits and blog more life posts. But if I can achieve the four big resolutions, I’ll be happy.
Have you made any resolutions for 2014?